WHERE IS HE??

I know I know. I didn't come back right away because I wanted some time to pass to make sure the moment wasn't fleeting. Here's the rest of the story: Tony and I hung out at my place on Saturday instead of Sunday. He came over to my place since he was taking his aunt's car for the night. I was still in awe the same as the first time he took my hand. That man is a gorgeous specimen. He said he was hungry so I cooked!!  We sat and talked for a couple of hours and he gave me a nice long hug at the end of his visit. And that's the last time I seen him. Have you ever been so  into a person that you just never want to be apart? That's how I felt. I felt cheated. I felt robbed. I wanted more. But Tony won't cooperate. Yes we talk and text, but its always something going on in his life to distract him from being a part of mine. He works two jobs and I work full time, 50 hours a week, plus school, so our schedule's are always clashing. Plus here's the downer: He started talking about sex. Yeah in my head I'm thinking its a fuggin wrap cause that's probably all he wants. But my heart wants love and loneliness wants a warm body in my bed next to me every night. But you know what? I will keep hope alive. Even if love doesn't come in the form of Tony, it will come. I'll play things cool and keep focus on the things that really matter to me at this point. And as for Reggie: Pam told me she let him know what was good and it has been really awkward going next door. I went over one night and he acted as if I didn't exist. It's cool. You guys gave me the heads up and I appreciate all of the wisdom everyone has contributed to my post. So I'll be back soon to let you guys know what is new in my life. CIAO